She followed her heart, but chose the wrong path

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 02:15:29 GMT

carousel horse lamp. $6.99
perfectly matching lamp shade from ikea $6.00
two 40 watt light bulbs from CVS $4.00

the bestest lamp ever that reminds me of my pops everytime i look at it...

... priceless!!!!!!!!!!! <3

Wed, 09 Jul 2008 03:36:20 GMT

hollyy shit... a lot going on....

only thing that matters today:

I passed my CPS post-test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh and the mets won and phils lost, 1.5 back baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 12:01:31 GMT

Laura... did you get my text yesterday?

My text messages are all fucked up, Roger said it had something to do with towers that were affected by storms, at&t and spring and t-mobile... so lame...I cant tell if a certain person is avoiding me orrrr ifff its the stupid phone again... it has been the phone before but who knows.

My test is in less than a week im going to puke on myself. I dont even know what i dont know. i feel like i know a lot. i wish the practice test was tomorrow and not monday... i dont wanna cram all my CPS books into my head monday night. i need to start studying this weekend forrrrr sureeee....

Im so excited for the 4th! were going to long beach and it should be a fun day! this should be a good weekend. next week is a mets game, john mayer and maybe alk3 on the weekend if i can get a ticket that isnt a crazy amount of money.

Off to work... i hope i can make it through today. i still wouldn't mind it being 5pm....

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 22:11:35 GMT

2.5 weeks into training. it's exhausting, but im not completely passing out at 9pm every night. We are being video taped on friday, and im nervous. Next week starts on the job training, more things to make me nervous. I have a lot of work to do also. argh argh.

i've been noticing that i'm getting hit on a lot more with my straight hair, it's weird. Today a bus driver... last night a guy followed me down peninsula, and then finally pulled along side of me to tell me how he 'couldnt stop looking at me'. did he think that would work? i got a little nervous and turned down a block before mine... there were other incidences too... i mean, its cool and all, but where are the dudes i WANT to hit on me.

We dont have to dress up at work, which is really good. i dont cover my wrist, but i cover my arm. finding cute tops has been a challenge. i found one at forever 21 yesterday. its funnn. i throw cardigans over everything now. i need to work on my work wardrobe.

tonight i have a bunch of things to read through and a paper to answer.. im tired :( no more work boooo. going to go to beerys for a little while later.. just to "take care of myself" as the trainers are always saying...

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 11:34:34 GMT

tottalllllyyyy blahhhhhhhhhhh today :(

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 21:52:27 GMT

Reading through the family court act just made me super happy that i didnt choose law as a profession.

Thu, 29 May 2008 11:40:13 GMT

Last night i decided to go out. After a cute little invite i couldnt really resist. I'm glad i did... however, mark your calendars, today is the first rough day getting out of bed. argh.

at least its thursday.

my laura leaves me in two days :(

Thu, 15 May 2008 21:40:34 GMT

well, there is no reason to be a fat kid anymore. I joined new york sports club.

Taking the drive to the mall today was so annoying. It really is too far. I almost cried though because i really loved it there. :( what are you going to do though. It was good for my when i was working at the mall, now that im not, not so good. I sorta only wish i did this like a month ago :(

waiting for erin to come home for hopefully a good dindin!

nails are done, im loving neutral pink with dark toes. its so fun. i just got this crazy color that i love though. next week ;)

Mon, 05 May 2008 19:06:03 GMT

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 19:05:59 GMT

super in need of caffeine. i have less than ZERO motivation. I need to go to the bank, put in a couple of checks and get billy money for the yankees/mets tickets. I need to go to the post office and mail out like 3 things. I HAVE to do wash. No clean undies, and a dirty bed :x i really need to get moving.

On the plus side, i thought i fell asleep for way longer than i had, i thought it was already 3pm, and was trying to figure out how it was 140 and then 300.

Ok writing this gamme anxiety time to motivate.

<3

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 17:43:43 GMT

This has been a fun weekend. I havent felt a weekend since two summers ago, and i love it!

Friday night i went with a bunch of ladies to the knitting factory for someones bday. we stayed about an hour or so, then went to a loft party in bk. kind of not my scene attt alll, but it was still ok. then we drove back to li and andria, maren and i went to the diner. I weighed 3 more pounds than my normal weight when i woke up the next morning, i guess i shouldnt have eaten a crazy meal at 2am.

I came home @ 4am passed out and woke up to another BEAUTIFUL day yesterday, got up at 1030 got my butt to dawns, we met nic in brooklyn and we walked around, took pictures and hung out all day long. we went down by the water too. it was just suchhh a nice day, until the 75 mins of traffic coming home. then i went to my uncles to hang out with the fam, and then a bunch of us went to see forgetting sarah marshall. it was really funny and really cute. i like going to the movies. i came home passed out at 1, and here i am. i have to go to jims brothers at 530 which means i really need to get my ass in the shower, oh and eat... and clean off my bed.

AHH ok im moving <3 happy sunday!

p.s. go mets. 1st place!

rain rain PLEASE go away and stop ruining my life

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 13:28:51 GMT

1. i woke up at 845 realizing i passed out again at 10pm
2...which means my laundry is still in the laundry room... oh and its raining and now im going to have to deal with the beasts dogs who are currently beating the shit out of each other... i can hgear them under my window.
3..speaking of windows i definitely left mine WIDE open with my NEW laptop underneath HELLO RACHAEL! it seems as though the keyboard was the only thing splattered on, which seems to be working although the mousepad feels a little effed up...
4...and the kicker... the TINY bit of paint that was a LITTLE peeling by my dresser.... which has my nice tv on it is not so tiny anymore...and dripping a little... oh and my landlord isnt picking up his phone.

someone pass me a xanax im going to freak out.

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 19:32:58 GMT

someone pleasee... tell me why some boys have to crawl under your skin and stay there. its not fair. dont get me wrong, i love every second of it, buts not fair.

off to get a new kicky and hopefully some lunch! (laura call me later!!!!)

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 05:51:56 GMT

RIP SK2

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 19:32:25 GMT

dammit... i forgot go to CVS too. too much to do today!!!!!

laura totally need to tell you this!!!

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 10:22:51 GMT

i cannottttt believe how shady some people can be, and then talk to you like totally normall....

wow. i think i won this round though.

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 17:41:04 GMT

i'm bummed.

oh well.

happy halloween.

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 02:21:09 GMT

I have been fortunate enough to never lose a loved one from my immediate family. I always thought my nana would outlive everyone, as longevity is a gene that runs in our family, and she had beaten the odds so many times, that my aunt said she was a cat with 9+ lives.

The news of her passing was completely horrific to me. When i was little, my mom moved us back to queens so i could be closer to my family, and spend more time with my grandparents. In essence, my nana and papa became my babysitters and were there all the times my mother couldn't (while she was working she was on-call and worked late hospital hours). I just remember sitting in the sun with my nana, and doing gymnastics in the living room, all the dance recitals she came to, the trips to roy rogers, and most importantly, all the nights of me sleeping on an air mattress on her bedroom floor....yelling at the tv about the mets. In fact, i believe it was the collapse of the mets that really pinpointed her time, she just couldnt wait to see what 08 would bring.

I have never seen a deceased body before. I didn't really want today to be the first time either. My aunt angela and i had been talking about her grandmother's passing, and how close they were, very similar to my nana and i. I knew she understood exactly how i felt because she was around my age when it happened to her. I felt upset, scared, nauseas, and just fearful to see nana, for the last time. Ang told me that i'd regret it if i didnt. It took me a long time. she looked beautiful. It is very surreal, i almost felt like she would open her eyes and start talking to us. My papa was so cute. He said how shes never looked so pretty, and we got him out of his wheelchair and onto a step stool to lean in to give her one last kiss. It was the most romantic thing i have ever seen. My nana had given him a picture of her when she was very young and they were first dating. We found that picture last night and framed it. seeing him hold it, you could see how much he adored her and the memories he was thinking about.

So many of my nana's friends came from far and near to be with her today. It was truly endearing to hear her best friend speak about her. She was such a wonderful woman. Everyone at her nursing home was in tears to hear of her passing, and in complete shock. She was such a free spirit whom everyone loved to be around. She made you forget about all your problems..."this too shall pass". She made the best of every single day. She went to her nursing home and made plenty of new friends, participated in every activity, and put smiles on everyone's face. I truly will miss her every day.

iloveyounana.

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 02:27:44 GMT

Colmena List.

march 2nd 1925 - october 1st 2007.

<333

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 22:12:12 GMT

you know when you're naughty how a teacher would make you write something (theoretically) one hundred times?

I have no balls and i will assert confidence.
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.................etc.

I dyed my hair darker! i missed my dark hair, maybe that'll help!

Paul Lo Duca and friends tomorrow!

Fall outdoorsy stuff Sunday!

Going to see scott on saturday!

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 02:24:07 GMT

I forgot how much "how to deal" made me cry when i saw it in the theatre.

I also forgot that 'sandy cohen' and 'not myself' by JM was in it.

TEARFEST!

Three day weekend. woohoo

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 16:50:56 GMT

it seems i met a semi attractive jewish boy on ok cupid. interesting.

im really anxious today.

john mayer is tonight.

the mets have a day game. "camp day" :( sooo would have been there if i was working camp :(:(.

i might cry a couple times today.

im going to pay my accountant today. i swear.

ok enough random statements.

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 15:00:48 GMT

Staying up late to watch the mets win, and getting up at 4:30am do see John Mayer... while no sleep was involved, it was all amazing.

I'm so happy i'm seeing him twice within a week. seriously melts me... oh and the best part, it wasnt just a concert concert, it was good morning america. So many crazy people, and i saw someone from one of my classes from stonybrook! she worked near there and likes him.. shes so cute and sweet aww, again i miss school.. ok thats the last word on that.

Cynthia is so cute and fun, we had a nice time.

Oh yeah best part ERIC CLAPTON WAS THERE! him and john did crossroads together. It was absolutely AMAZING! the best part was that in my folk class we studied the many versions of the song and all that good stuff. IT was so awesome, totally like when dylan came out during the springstein concert. I called jim during the song too, i think he was a little jealous ;)

Ok now ive been up for 7 hours, a nap is in order!

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 00:06:30 GMT

I love that i switched my shift to watch the all-star game. What a loser i am. I'm not even watching with anyone, i just got home from spin, and im laying in bed, thinking about some yummy green beans and just relaxin'.

Back to the gym, commitment level 10!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 07:38:03 GMT

ahh life...

sometimes its fun to wait around for a while to watch pete wentz dj a sick set, oh yeah and have ashlee simspson walk right in front of you.

i love free drinks from wasted guidos boys. He read my mind i was thirsty.

This summer could be a lot of fun. I need to make it.

I want hand holding down the stairs...

tbc....